For the guys who dun want to mingle

Ruined!!

I am ruined....and the reason is 'U'

Whatt??? You Getting me Married???

Hypocrites!!

Getting lost!!

It's OK..I am what I am!!

the worth living dreams!!

Never do I see a dream that sees possibility..may be…the sky is what I want…

The sun, the oceans, the waves, the speechless creatures…

caressing with love..as they know no death…

if only the life could be lived in dreams, it proved the worth...

I wish.....the dreams were all i could live for..

wid no boundaries & no slavery..with wings of desires I would fly with..

I thank the one above..the almighty..

for the dreams where i fly endlessly...

through an Autorick Ride..

Yesterday was a super occupied day at office; criticism, suggestions, receptiveness, corrections, and finally had a finished piece of an important project. The day at office ended with a mixed feeling of joy that the work was complete and a feeling of feeling not the best and a want to improve immediately at understanding people more.

On returning home, I routinely hire an autorick and I generally get a straight NO from most of them because the distance from the bus stop to my home is not good enough to earn them a good fare (though the Govt has fixed a minimum fare which I am ready to abide always). And no surprise that it happened yesterday too, heard 3 NO's and then a YES from an auto driver. His attire and looks assured me that he was a Muslim.

Generally, I don't like Muslims as somewhere the talks of terrorism being rooted in by Muslims have made an impact in my mind. And i don't see Muslims very often in my everyday work. It is generally rumored that the plight of Muslims in Gujarat is bad and they are not considered for any good by the Govt. of Gujarat. This curiosity to know their actual state in Gujarat made me converse with the auto driver in the 5 mins journey to my home which the road traffic extended to 10 mins.

The conversation went as below:
Me:Where are you from bhaiyya?
He: Me? I have been born & brought up in Gujarat but originally from Punjab.
Me: OK.
He: What makes you ask me this (smilingly)?
Me: Nothing bhaiyya. Looking at you, I guessed u r Muslim and wanted to know few things.
He: What things? (curiously)
Me: I heard that Gujarat doesn't treat the Muslim Community well? How much truth does it hold?
He: No sister, that's the thing of the past. We all have jobs now and no body has time to think about all this. Only the ones who have luxurious salaries and have great businesses talk about such issues. We, the low income people only think of how we can go ahead and how we can earn more to keep our families happy.
Me: Hmm. So how much do you earn approximately by driving auto for the whole month? Do you earn around 15k?
He: No No sister, What are you saying? We hardly earn 6 to 7 grands a month. Can you tell me anyway to grow further and do good for our lives? If you have any suggestion, please give us and we will try to implement.
Me: Even with such income, why do most of your fraternity say 'NO' to your customers (passengers) knowing that they are not going to take anything away from them?
He: What can be done sister? In today's world no one can be explained anything. Everyone has a justification for their deeds. I only know one thing that I believe in serving. If a shopkeeper says NO to his customer for a thing of small value which will waste his time and prefers a customer who purchases a thing of higher value, the shopkeeper is making loss, not of money but of reputation. And I apply the same in my auto business.
Me: Hmm. I must say you are doing a great work of value by transporting people to their destinations.
He: Thank you madam, but I am doing my duty. And I am earning money.

Meanwhile, my home had arrived and I had to leave. I asked him 'How much'? He said 'Rs.10', which was the minimum fare and not Rs.12 which generally most Non-Muslim auto rick drivers ask me for the same distance. I gave him the money and while leaving, he asked me, "Sister, is working in the call centers good for the new generation?" And an array of thoughts ran into my mind but I only answered him "It's OK for passing time or for pocket money when you don't have a good degree but one should not take it as his/her career if other options are available", and I left...with more unanswered questions in my mind. But one thing is for sure, conversations do change your perceptions about the World....

ciao..

The 'sale' season and Shopping!

So now that the shopping season was at its all time high for all the delicious and mouth-watering discounts that almost all the brands had to offer, the ever-hungry-for-new-clothes women (i m one of them) had a ball of time and money. What can be better than getting a levi's for half the price of its original MRP and to have a Tommy watch at a comparatively lower price? The sale season somehow makes everyone feel that they are smart buyers though there is a hidden message contained in them, "Fools, we are making profits even after giving huge discounts, imagine how we loot you with full prices!". But there is something about shopping that is emotional, and addictive which makes everyone blind and crave for more.

 For me, new things bring new expressions. Each thing in my wardrobe has a memory attached to it. And when i am too bored of everything, the best way to keep myself afresh is to buy something new, even if it has least value, but to have it and create new memories with it brings an excitement. Just as we have memories with some songs or places, we have something to remember with the clothes, accessories, things, and even furniture of our house.

The sale season is going to be over soon and I will make the best use of the season knowing that the deals would be better but not the best. Happy Shopping!

abstract! straight from the heart.....

“It’s nothing more than destiny that we are still together,
not falling in to the world’s unjustified laws! 
Laws and rules should be made for crimes, not love. 
Love is beyond everything, 
even beyond the power of itself,
beyond the power of mind and heart, 
beyond the power of humans,
and even God. 
Come what may, love is destined and it will flower!”

"Got patience??"

Well, i know i am too small a person to write about this vague, tough, spiritual, abstract and 'most-tried-but-miserably-failed by people' topic, but still, here, i m gonna put my feelings, my observations, my experiences about the most sought after thing is the world "Patience". Please excuse me if you have different lines of thoughts or if you follow the thoughts of your favorite well-known spiritual writers coz they r too high the people(and m too small before them :)). I will only pen down my real-life thoughts and observations without referring to other sources to keep it natural.

Our life is just like this truck. This truck keeps moving with its fixed speed (or the one which its driver has fixed for it) and the other vehicles behind it are kind of teased by this "Got patience??" tag..:P.  In real life, the god, destiny is our driver, our body the vehicle and we are the chasers(other vehicles) that keep trying to overtake what God (the driver) has destined for us. Our destiny and God keep teasing us with all the bumps, highs and lows, in our life to test our patience or rather which can be called 'endurance'.

Our patience is tested right from the origin of our life, when we have to take a complete form of a baby from a sperm in the mother's womb, then to come out to this world, then to grow up, then to rank high in school, college, then to get a good life-partner, then to be rich, then to have good kids, & as we know, the list goes on. That's not all, even while dying i have heard that people talk about which children should get what share of the deceased properties. Man! i feel like telling those dying people, Go and get a life! (though thats the most ironical statement one could ever make).:P..:D

After reading several books on spirituality, and understanding some of the virtues explained at The Art of Living & The Brahmakumaris, one lesson is clear to me, for real, that 'Life has its own destination'. We are just the means to get to that. Imagine, I did my graduation from commerce hon's, i worked as a content developer after that, then did my MBA in finance, then worked with one of the top banks in India and now i am back into content management just to satiate my creative desires. May be, it was destined for me??

Destiny for me is happiness and it has several roads to it, we just have to choose ours! One should take the path which they like and not the forced one. But yes, for this we got to know what are our highest interests, our best capabilities, and there is no one but us who know ourselves the best. So, there is no use listening to others when we choose our carriers. Immaterial, innocent happiness should take a precedence over material desires and then we will have open eyes, we will be natural, we will be the real us! And when we realize this, all the worry, hurry and impatience vanishes. That's coz we do not rush towards our destiny then, we just walk towards it exploring the beauty of the roads and every minute of it. It may be possible that the money, luxury in the chosen route is not that great amongst other routes, but i bet, we ll be at least happy with every bit of our life. And as i said, destiny is nothing more but pure happiness.

Once we start giving our life a chance to hold our chains, it ll start giving us our best but if we keep chasing it to win a competition, it ll tease us just as that truck by showing us a board saying "Got Patience"? But this doesn't mean that we stop putting efforts, it means to understand ourselves the best with our eyes and not others' eyes.







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This one is for the sleepaholics..

A close friend said to me "People go to sleep, and you go to wake up"..Man! what the heck? Am i such a sleepaholic?

Well, i guess sleep is something that keeps reminding us that we need it until we have it completely. And that's the matter with me. I dun have it enough at a stretch and the slothful feeling, the temptation to sleep keeps whispering to me "hey girl, sleep, u need a good sleep, it ll show u dreams which will take you to the places you most wanted to go, be with people you most want to be with, have the special(est) moments of your life which you can't otherwise experience". Now tell me, who can resist such a temptation?

Woody Allen has quoted "There are two types of people in this world, good and bad. The good sleep better, but the bad seem to enjoy the waking hours much more.". Well, i think i belong to the second fraternity ,'the bad people', as i hate to sleep early and keep pleading god in the morning if he could start the mornings a lil later. :D. I relish the sweet dreams in the mornings and mostly wake up with them half- way when my alarm starts barking reminding me of the long span of 22 hours that have to be passed consciously or unconsciously to get into the same titillating dreams again.:-(

There is another way i use my sleep as; I use it as a drug! Believe me or not, i sleep when i am most depressed or when i think deeply about a dispiriting event or a conversation. When i wake up, i have the blurred memories of those. I have a new spirit to start with & a new strength to confront them. Try it guys! You will see the results too (but dun kill me later, if u get addicted to it :P). 


Stop stop!! I had not thought i would be stretching it so much that it becomes the longest post for the month, i wrote it coz even now, i am feeling sleepy (as usual). My job is great. Atleast it doesnt stop me from taking a nap, which i will do now! Ciao guys, see u later after a break..till then have a good sleep for a fresher mind..zzzzzzzzz~~~~

At the extreme state of boredom!

What do people normally do at the extreme situations when they feel extremely about something? A situation when you are hungry and nothing eatable is reachable? A situation when you just dun feel like even uttering a word? This is what i did..wrote a short piece of shit!

M hungry, m bored
I dun have a thing to be told


The work seems dull
MY stomach null
All i want is some adventure!

Please dun kill me for writing this..I am at the extreme state of boredom now.

sunday dinner with guitar! Food, music, happiness!

This sunday was going just well..a late rise in the morning, a delicious breakfast at the IIM road with bro, a movie with close relatives, some shopping and then the......Dinner! A new restaurant called 'six strings' has come up in our locality..which badges itself to be a destination for a combination food, music, and happiness!

When i entered the restaurant, it looked like just another fastfood joint for youngsters in Ahmedabad. Not a very big space but the interiors was quite well managed. The theme of the joint revolved around rock music and guitar. On the walls hanged the pictures and posters of  legends.. In the corner, was a set with a set of few guitars, a mike and a sound system, but all left dead. No one was there to give them a life.

We had ordered our dinner. The order was noted by probably the owner of the restaurant, who was probably in his early 30s, his loose attire and an impressive language skill made him look cool. We had almost the half of our dinner when i saw someone entering the premises and heading towards the set of instruments. He was a fair man, not so tall, with grey eyes, curly short hair and his attire endorsed ADIDAS.

I guessed he was the guitarist and i wasn't wrong. HE WAS THE GUITARIST. He checked the sound system & the guitar strings, with the owner guiding him (which assured me that the person who had taken the order, was the owner, and had a gr8 interest 4 music). He started with the song, 'leaving on a jet plane'. I was impressed..i knew that this sunday dinner i ll cherish for long, as music makes my mood and the sound of the guitar, especially works like a drug for me! The second song was the FIFA official theme song..he requested for our participation and to sing along with him. I loved that song, 'Give me freedom, give me fire, give me reason, take me higher'..and i wanted to sing aloud with him. and also wanted to sway with the music standing, But Ahmdbd crowd is not so cool and would have contemplated that i am mentally unsound had i stood up to dance. But nevertheless i did clap with the song and i was alone to do that in the whole restaurant. The guitarist gave me a smile as the return for the encouragement that i provided him :) . The songs kept comin one after the other with claps following them. And i didn't want to leave and hence ended up eating more.

I wish to have more such dinners with the sound of guitar,  the soothing voice of that guitarist and close ones around. For sure, i ll spend more of my hard earned bucks in Six Strings, food, music and happiness!!(sigh)

writing is fun!

Writing is turning out to be great fun! For people who can't express much by talking, writing is the best medicine and the best means of expression. I tasted writing for the first time in the year 2007 when i had joined the co. Info Analytica as a content writer. After that i did my MBA in finance and worked for Axis Bank Ltd for 6 months. While working for the bank, i got to know my weaknesses and strengths. I found that i suck at doing mechanical work where you can't create anything and just have to do what u r ordered to.

For me, creating something when i work was most important. And what can be better than creating a piece of writing that you can own. Trust me, i haven't read any book on creative writing, etc. nor does reading too many books fascinate me. But since childhood, i had this fascination towards learning English language perfectly. While leaving my first job in Info Analytica, my boss told me "Roshni, i think this is the career for you!", but i thought he must be kidding n i just moved ahead to pursuing my MBA. But later , i realized that writing is what attracts me and keeps me happy. So why not make it my career!

Writing is of different genre, some like technical wriitng, some like creative and abstract writing. For me, i m still exploring what kind of writing i am perfect at. But i am happy that i have realized what actually i should be doing rather than trying trial and error method anymore. Truly said :"Better late than never".

This year would be devoted by me in improving my writing skills, reading few books on writing such as Bird by Bird by Anne Lamott, Write from the Heart : Unleashing the Power of Your Creativity by Hal Zina Bennet and some more.

Imaginations help us grow and our ideas grow. And luckily, God has gifted me a good imagination power which i have to learn to put into words perfectly. I will keep updating my blog with whatever new and interesting i learn about writing skills. Till then, ciao.!

creating something

So now when m settled in a job which i was long waiting for, its the time to jump to somethings unexplored! The first activity i wanna take up in the coming weeks is learning guitar which i have been longing for past 1 yr. The sound of guitar gives me immense pleasure and goose bumps. And since childhood, i have loved everything that gives me an extreme feeling, be it watching a horror movie which scares me, to be swinging on fast rides which tickles me, or be it dance which energizes me.

Also, i want to join a class on creative writing to enable myself to have a broader vision of this world and to be able to express myself more exhaustively. Trust me, there is no better feeling than to create something, just as a mother creates a baby! All of us should create something everyday, be it a write-up, a song, a poetry, a painting, or whatever. Something that u can say that u have created and which only you own. Few days ago, i wrote few poetries just to pass time and today when i turn the pages back to them, i feel glad that i wrote them.

One of them is here..

I'm happy... I'm feeling glad.

I got sunshine in a bag

I'm useless...but not for long....

my future...is comin on... is comin on... :)

I was cynical, loved to follow my brain

But god sent a messenger to hold my life’s chain

He pulled me here, he pushed me there

In the end, I knew what I did gain

Desires are endless

So is our soul

We get a short life

Let’s not make it a black hole

We are the sunshine

Let’s cover the cloud

Keep the brain aside

Let the heart shout aloud

Tashu

relationships

Relationships..hah!! a simple word but has multiple meanings. sounds good but tough to handle with some.So how do we define a RELATIONSHIP? Technically it means "a state of connectedness between people (especially an emotional connection)" or "State of relatedness or connection by blood or marriage or adoption". These technical meanings look so easy to read and understand but practically they r equally difficult to maintain.

People have numerous friends, partners, family relatives, teachers, etc etc who they create relationships with. Each bonding can be called a relationship but the actual test is that of maintaining these wonderful relations. God gifted relations of that of a mom n kid, a father n son, those of siblings r mutually maintained but what about the ones that r made by us? the ones that we opt by choice? the ones of friends, our partners, our colleagues, etc?

Till date what i have learned is that relationships are the play of words and deeds. Some people r more sensitive towards words and some towards our actions. If we keep a check over these two variables and use them with care, every relationship can turn beautiful. On the other hand, if we take anyone for granted and speak and do just anything ignoring the other's feelings, it is bound to break. I feel happy about those who have long term relations out of understanding and friendship. I have observed that partners who r more friendly make better partners than partners who r partners out of mere attraction. A friendly relationship would blossom even when the attraction is gone.

People have break-ups, they move on, look for other partners, but somewhere at the back of their minds, they r left with some shadows of their ex partners. This shows how effective even a small and a short-term relation can be. Slowly you forget the bad shades of ur ex and the good ones make u smile every now and then. This is the fragrance of relationships.

Relationships are precious. Through this blog, i only want to spread a message that do not take anyone for granted be it your mom, dad, sis, bro, friends or your partner. And if someone takes you for granted and speaks shit to you, it is also important to immediately make them realize in your own ways of what they r doing. Its not bad to be selfish at times. Be good but only till the limit people understand your goodness. Anyways in the end i want to add that everyone wants to feel special, everyone needs to be cared, everyone loves to smile, everyone wants to be nurtured with love. Make every relationship special and the life will be a beautiful journey with lots of smiles.:)